10/12/23

The shockiest thing of my fucking life happened yesterday. After all was said and done and I honestly am not holding anything against anyone.. they came back to say happy birthday. Honestly like why? But sure. If that makes you feel good lol. They said sorry but it was like not much of an apology from them, just an apology that it happened.

But like it made me realize how great of a point I’m in right now.

9/20/23

Omg I’m nervous??? Send help. Just typing this out for reference later 💀

9/15/23

Aaasdfgrfhjdhj honestly this is just a prime example of “don’t worry Shannon, time will pass and another problem will occupy your mind”. 💀

8/19/23

Omg I’m like. Delusional right now but I have to understand that this is way above my league. I know my range 💀💀💀 but BUT I just have to post my thoughts somewhere

8/7/23

Listen. When I lost someone I was close to for a couple of years, I was completely devastated for a bit. It was due to a loss of trust and honesty I felt like I was betrayed, but I had always wondered for months why I couldn’t shake it off.

I think it was because I saw my own type of personality in him. So to be kind of betrayed by someone I thought was similar to me in thoughts? I felt like I betrayed myself. After a year, it still stings here and there but honestly if they don’t apologize then they don’t actually care about what they did lol. That’s not really a friendship in hindsight.

On another hand, I’ve just completely distracted myself with other things recently so I noticed I haven’t really thought about him at all LOL. Note to self: don’t party too hard in NYC you’re going to be embarrassed

trying to get a bunch of videos and photos for my year end montage and i see a screenshot i took of this dude saying “Sorry for making you feel less than for having emotions before”

sounds nice in theory but this bro proceeded to do even worse during the year LOL and just made me feel less 😮‍💨 i truly gained so much trauma and mistrust for this year

I need to vet my friends better in the new year lolol but thankfully cutting this person out dramatically increased my life quality

less stress, clear skin, haven’t been sick.. this was painful yet a long time coming but i made it

8/29/22- it’s great to log your thoughts down somewhere, whether it be tumblr or a diary but DAMN. Who knew someone you trusted had less accountability as you. Like, the whole time I thought they were trying to be a better person, but it turns out that they’re still far far faaar from it. I’m not even sure if they’re trying.

I feel much better knowing that at least I’m responsible and can be communicative enough when it counts. I’m honestly a little bit embarrassed to put it lightly.

I finally see that he’s kind of a scummy guy that tries to look good surface-level only, unfortunately.

Time is good, life is healing

I feel mucho better than last week! Time away helps best.